Man the past few days have been crazy.
Hence me being MIA once again. :o)
I finally feel a sense of relief. Organization restored. Work load caught up. Files updated and released. I think that I really needed to recharge my batteries for the new year.
At first was under the impression that I was in pergatory as far as work was concerned. Not really happy, not upset - just sorta plodding along.
Well this week all that changed. I was prepared to loose my job due to the changing of companies and I know that they are cutting heads, but instead I got moved into a competence center for decorative plastics. And in the next year or so my job function will change to being just what I really want to do, moving into sourcing activities and out of APQPs!
I feel relief. I feel recharged. I feel really good about my job again. I love the company I work for, and now I know that it is just going ot keep getting better. Plus I get discounts on tires and brakes! :o)
On the exercise/training/health side of life - as of this evening I am down 9 lbs since Christmas. And that is without major workouts like I was pulling in December. I have ran a little, biked a little, but mainly had been focused on all the work concerns and nail biting, so I was not living in the pool lately.
That sound right there?
That is the sound of the pool calling my name. My fellow swimming nymphs are beckoning to me, but they will have to wait a little longer. I am not feeling like swimming right now - not like for a period of time, I mean literally just right now.
You see, when life gets crazy I get antsy - so tomorrow I am going to head out on a run. I am skipping my scheduled swim practice with FAST to head out to Kennsington. I will be back in the game in swimming next week - just for now I need to do a little solo activity.
I said it before I will say it again - running is my church. Running is my therapy. Running is what keeps propelling me forward.
Swimming is my active recovery. Swimming is my fluid motion. Swimming is my excitement and joy. Swimming is my sport-love right now (Mike is my LOVE love of course! Awwwww.. sappy!)
But running. Running is my meditation and contemplation place.
I bike when I want to work out frustration. I swim when I want to celebrate and feel beautiful. I run when I need to re-center.
One thing I have found in the past few months is that activity has to match mood if I am to stick with it and make it my life. If I am really in need of zoning out I cannot do drills in the pool or hop on the bike right now. If I need to get out my anger, I cannot go for a run because I would take it out on my body and that will not move me forward!
I love the fact that I have embraced health. My body and my mood are both very happy with me! I am loving being active and I see such improvements already! I hit my December swimming goal early, so now I am working on my January goal. No more half-assed sub-funs (to blatantly steal a term from Bold).
I went all-in this year. I think that I may just have a full-house in my hand.
To end this fine fine post - Mike's Sister emailed this to me today and I love it!
For New Year 2008...
The best gift anyone can give me this new year is a planner.
I like planners because I am a planner.
I like thinking ahead.
I like being prepared.
I get a high from being on top of things.
But some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn't always turn out as planned.
You don't plan for a broken heart.You don't plan for a failed business venture.You don't plan for an adulterous husband.Or a wife who wants you out of her life.
You don't plan for an autistic child.You don't plan for spinsterhood.You don't plan for a lump in your breast.
You plan to be young forever. You plan to climb the corporate ladder.You plan to be rich and powerful.You plan to be acclaimed and successful.You plan to conquer the universe.You plan to fall in love -- and be loved forever.
You don't plan to be sad.You don't plan to be hurt.You don't plan to be broke.You don't plan to be betrayed.You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You plan to be happy.
You don't plan to be shattered.
Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But most times, what you want and what you get are two different things.
We, mortals, plan. But so does God in the heavens.
Sometimes, it is difficult to understand God's plans especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours. Often, when God sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose the cross that God wishes us to carry, but we can carry that cross with courage knowing that God will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with.
Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, God sends us pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, God sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, God sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
Sometimes, God takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.
Make plans but understand that we live by God's grace. Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6