"Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal."
-Pamela Vaull Starr
I am so glad that I decided to do a 31 days running streak. It was tough the first few nights but now I feel empowered. No more obligation, now I am making strides towards a goal.
I think that a lot of my lack of motivation lately has been due to accomplishing a huge goal. No one ever talks about the let down after meeting or exceeding a goal. I really never thought that it would be possible to feel lost or let don after the Half Ironman, but that is exactly how I felt for the month following.
I found out that this is normal., but it is not normal for me. Maybe being is the strange situation that I was training at this volume for 2 years in a row before accomplishing my goal had something to do with it. I am pretty sure it had.
Now that I am not training at that volume, I feel lost. My only remaining goals for this season are some running races, but I feel like the 30 days I took off from training hurt more than it helped to get me re-focused.
This running streak, however, has been the trick. I am using the remaining months of 2010 as a rebuilding time. I am training to finish strong and happy, regardless of clock time.
With that though, my immediate goal is to run daily. I figure that the only risks are injury, and the benefits are consistency in training, getting back my self confidence, and getting back my base mileage.
Maybe I have not lost as much as I think I have in those 30 days. How does 30 days erase 2 years in reality?
I guess that we shall see. Time to get back to dreaming deep and putting new goals before me.
Tonight I am forgoing the run at PTC with my running club and instead will do a run around home.
I need to go shopping for a dress to wear for my super secret birthday dinner as well as to Mike's 20th Class Reunion this weekend.
Life is good folks! Sometimes going back to square 1 is not a bad thing. Sometimes going back means moving forward.